I am not sure if it ever was obvious enough, but I honestly feel detached from this blog for the past weeks. I have thought about it, and it is probably because of my inability to write when I want to, which practically made me months delayed with updates. Imagine, we are days away from December and I am still stuck with my photos from May (wow, a May-December affair?). It is nice to be reminded of past experiences and travels whenever I update with a 6-month delayed post, but as I do it longer, I kind of grow this feeling of irrelevance between what I am trying to re-live and with what I am currently going through in daily life.
Adding to this, I have undeniably found it so difficult to write about my thoughts. I am perfectly aware that what I think or do is not essential to anyone's consciousness; but to me, it is quite what I am clinging to, for a chance of maintaining sanity and hope in this life. I don't think I am a blogger per se, but I have learned to know myself well that no matter how mundane/sentimental it sounds, writing about things keeps me going. Probably why I feel in disorder is because I was in distress last October and did not get to express any of it out of me, the first part of November brought me a bit of calmness and surprise, and now something cradled me into a disappointment again. It is a fluctuating line, really.
But I am not here now to express forlorn. I am still in the middle of things, I guess. Some of it may have fell apart, but I can only try to pick up the morsels of this whole cookie crumble.
So here's a short list of what transpired in life lately:
- Bought a journal (it is nowhere near a creative one, but writing on it helps my brain from imploding)
- Caught up with my TV shows (aside from my usual Grey's Anatomy/Scandal/Homeland, I have reconnected with Suits and started a new show How to Get Away with Murder)
- Been emotionally affected by Downton Abbey (hahaha, I love the characters so much)
- Got an office recognition (i might have inwardly fainted from shock, but am oh so grateful)
- Traveled to Coron, Palawan (one of my most beautiful trips so far, location/experience-wise)
- Squeezed in some precious alone time in coffee shops
- Tried to draw
- Enjoying train and bus trips no matter how bad the traffic is (by daydreaming, imagining scenes like in the movies, mentally guessing each person's life story from afar haha)
- Have not read books (because I'm busy watching aforementioned TV shows, what a shame)
- Purchased a lot, and different kinds of stationery (it's a therapy)
It's a wonder how quickly November has flown.
